It’s crazy to think where I am in my life right now. Never would I have imagined just a few months ago that I would be where I am at this moment. This isn’t necessarily a bad thing, not at all. But at one point maybe a few years ago, I thought to myself… Hey, I know where I see myself in the future – and I’m going to have it all! An amazing boyfriend, a career I’ll love, and a cute little home to live in with a dog to match. Little do you know, that time in between then and now – a lot has changed.
From friendships, scholarly feats, and relationships… I figured I had it good. And I did, I loved every second of it. Not saying my life isn’t good right now, I’m still trying to figure it out – one step at a time. I am blessed to have people who truly care about me to support me in these troubled times I’ve been having. I admit, I was depressed, sulking, and even lost for a while. But I realized that that’s not who I am. I know I am a lot stronger than someone who dwells on the past and the “what ifs” that life challenges us with. It’s new to me, getting back into what people call the “dating pool,” which I think refers to the saying “There’re plenty fish in the sea.” Come on people, we all know this… but really? After being in a relationship with someone for six years, you kind of gain this notion that you’ll spend the rest of your life together. And that’s what I thought. And it’s just a strange feeling to start over (not saying I’m trying to rush into another relationship-nope, not at all!), it’s just so new to me-different.
Moving on and getting to the point, people change. And it’s not to say whether it’s for good or bad, we don’t exactly know that yet. You can’t say “Hey, you changed-but it’s for the bad!” That’s ridiculous. The circumstances we are given right now ultimately make us who we are. And who’s to say that who we are as a person is good or bad? My point exactly.
So I dedicate this blog to new beginnings… To challenge me and keep me inspired.